Mx.D.P

I went out last night to an LGBTQ fundraiser gig with Aim King and their new band ‘Internet Fatigue.’ Their flatmate said, ‘Aim has never done the same performance twice; it’s always changed.’

… that’s because it’s in development!

I didn’t do the tweaks on the animation last week. I told myself it was because I was busy doing the tax return online… which was an adulting first for me… yet I had time for writing and printmaking, so what’s going on? Why didn’t I do it? I know the answer, but I didn’t want to…

At the gig, I met up with Aber uni friends, and there was a discussion about how well I connect with young people…

Yes, well, that’s because I’ve never grown up!!!

There is an old pilot joke… A little boy visits the cockpit and says to the pilot, ‘I want to be a pilot when I grow up’.

The pilot replies, ‘Sorry, son those two things are mutually exclusive.’

That infantilism might be useful in art… arr the Picasso quote…

However, during this week’s Thursday MA online sesh, we were talking about success and failure,

If you find yourself achieving success, you may be tempted to seek that same art practice/work again, solely for the purpose of boosting your ego. However, this approach will hinder your personal growth and development. On the other hand, if you encounter failure, it becomes a valuable opportunity for transformation and progress.

We naturally want to avoid risky practice because we don’t want the emotional lifting of dealing with failure….

Haha, yet ‘danger is my middle name’ … yet as I’ve gotten older, safety has become more tempting!!! Oooh, the lure of the furry deckchair!

As I was plodding through HMRC’s website last week, I was thinking, why am I doing this latest animation?…

I’m fooling myself if I think I am developing pacing and sound… yes I am, but it’s so restrictive because I’d have to edit it down to fit the time limit in the competition, a competition I entered last year with success… oops that’s an Ego stroke trap!!!

What am I at CSM for?

I am here to push myself into the uncomfortable places and grow my practice, not to run back to the comfortable….

So that brings me to last Tuesday’s visit to the cinema to watch The Creator with my son, who is a cinematographer… so it’s always going to be a conversation about cameras, sensors, composition, script, lighting, etc. etc.…but quickly became a conversation about VR/AI and how cinema for him, art for me and therefore the world is about to be transformed… (I know conflating art and world transformation might be a stretch, but it isn’t… art mirrors the world but it also changes it…) and AI/VR is going to be an enormous change for everyone…

So, instead of f*$king about on Procreate and Google translate, I’m off to learn more about ‘unreal’ and VR….

Of course, I was always going there… deep down, I know this…

On the way out of the door today, I thought I’d pop into my local gallery, 2 London Place, which, of course, ended up with a cup of tea, a biscuit and an art chat with Sadie:

Gallery curation (to frame or not to frame?)

Ideas for a Borth Arts festival next May (very exciting) focusing on accessibility and a push back against ableism.

I’m looking forward to looking after the online aspect of the festival.

I got to meet another artist Jess at the gallery, and I’m going to get my tiny printing press out to see if it works for her forthcoming workshop; I’ll be the printmaking tech!

Now what was that post about creating space for creativity to happen…

I only popped out…