Here, I look at some of the images from the sketchbook Our Struggle (German translation: Unser Kampf). They are not finished but its a good start. Select the first image, press on the i icon, and you can swipe through all the images and read the comments as you go along… Select the first image,…
Here, I look at some of the images from the sketchbook Our Struggle (German translation: Unser Kampf).
They are not finished but its a good start.
Select the first image, press on the i icon, and you can swipe through all the images and read the comments as you go along…
Select the first image, press on the i icon, and you can swipe through all the images and read the comments as you go along…
digital idea for the front cover…You might reconise, its a re-imagination of an infamous book1. I didn’t know where this sketchbook exploration would go. I was imagining a hole with teeth2. The black hetronormative square and the pink hole with teeth3. impressions through paper4. Black gel print square with sequential numbers. I liked the roller marks on this5.impressions mirrored6.Grid marked gel print with sequential numbers rollered over with acrylic waste paint. I didn’t like the manufactured grid. It felt, well, manufactured7. Impression backside of the paper. I liked this more than the front; it was camouflaged and surreptitious. 8. I made faint roller marks on the next gel plate. Stencilled Q for Queer… thinking about how to represent in code. I’m thinking about the NTU PhD interview and Trans folks going back into the closet or never coming out.9. Charcoal mark making with watercolour dry brush marks on acrylic matt medium, thinking about nothing…10. I stopped thinking after this as this for a while and just made…Gel print pink circle on dirty plate Queer stencil mark rubbed out with alcohol wipe. Black roller made square with a posca pen11. Baby oil plate clean, then black dry roller with stencil. I like this type of square12. Black gel square stencil acrylic pen. Fluorescent ink with urine.13. Chinese sumi ground ink on slate, Chinese brush marks and dry brush14. Black gel square and stencil, urine and sumi wash. Neat Danial Smith luna black watercolour paint smeared onto fingers and printed. Luna black is a granulating colour.15. Ajoining pages began to become one piece.16. Gel print and roller with urine wash, the prints are charcoal transfer with a pink second layer for print transfer. The wash made around the plates during print process, which leaves a small space.17. Fierce application of colour as in the first pages, using Dr Ph Martin, starting to use a glass dip pen to add detail.18. Heavy black roller mark cuts into pink gel print. I enjoy its tension.19. I started thinking again about the mycelium network working within the boundaries of a black square… enjoying the blow job on the black tattoo ink.20. This is a ghost gel print and oil pastel with black urine sumi wash. Why urine? Like spit, its an art supply I have and it doesn’t waste water… both have the POTENTIAL to change colour to TRANSITION a pigment…21. Loved the dry brush tattoo ink on this with wash under painting22. More glass pen work. Square made by tape over pink circle under painting… I LIKE THE IDEA OF TAPE23. Combining my most liked techniques at this stage – dry brush, glass pen and straw and dryer blow painting.24. Acrylic swirls with dry brush with stylus impressions into the paper rubbed with charcoal25. This page was similar to the previous one, but it used washed charcoal dragged through with a palette knife. In the last few pages, it became clear that these techniques would not work on canvas and that this sketchbook was now becoming its own work.26. Roller, blow and gel… the patern is imprints from my great uncles ‘whipping in crop’27. Direct print from the crop white gel over print.28. The black marks are whipped in using a BDSM plastic crop and transferred using fluorescent pink acrylic paint.29. Roller, blow, smear, gel print and whipped and stencilled with butterflies of the unconscious.30. Whipped magenta indian ink with oil pastel lines and gel clear square with paintube neck markings.31. The pages start to have conversations with each other…32. Sometimes they fight…33. This page is stronger than its sibling34. This is less35. But becomes more WHEN ajoined36.37.38.39.40.41. I am missing a painting… thats life…42. I LIKED THIS ONE.43. Red started to apear without white, when does it become pink?44. Kindness writing.45. I responded to plate 42.. 46. This was after a baby oil clean on the gel plate; I started to write down on the page method in case I forgot.47. The note says Posca Pen Transfer and Spit48. I was talking about mandalas to a friend. I drew a posca pen one on a plate; I didn’t like it and it had to be overwritten by the black swathe I was enjoying.49. I think I was getting cross here, fed up with my sketchbook. If that happened, I walked away, calmed down, and came back, what would happen if I didn’t…50. Painting with my roller and my paint tube, trying to eliminate paint clean up water and recycling, getting the plastic on the paper not in the waterways then out to sea!51. Using charcoal to reveal a transparent acrylic square52. I stuck down the thread and burnt the paint with a hot dryer..53. Whipped in acrylic paint and gel transferred whips.54. Wet acrylic under paint with Indian ink on top… burnt to crack the top layer55. There was not one page in this sketchbook that I didn’t learn something from. I would carry the immediate lessons with me to the next page, or it would appear the following day or week…56. I left gap pages because I knew from previous sketchbook work that I could refresh the conversation better that way. But I also used up pages further along, as again, I knew it would make me think about my journey. I also re-worked pages, for better and for worse. The prints of this drawing appear as gel prints on another page…57. Plastic wrapper waste…58. Heavily burned paint on the left…59.60. More burning…61. I do have a jar of water62. Marks from a BDSM paddle, its made of tyre rubber…63. I love the roller square…64. But I also love this direct squeezed watercolour paint square…65. I embrace the layers above and below, and from the previous page, the alcohol ink goes through several pages… God doesn’t make mistakes, Trans people are told…66. The pinstripe of the heteronormative suit, if you were wondering…67. Not whipping in but dangling by a thread… not my sanity… my paint…68. I loved the underneath textures 69.70. The paint texture I could make with my pallet knife71. There is a dirty hand in all of this..72. The reveal, pull off the tape73.74.75. The left is a lift, the right is a vagina, which is somewhat problematic for me right now76. What is a women?77. Waste wipe from an alcohol clean up…78. Wipe gone mad79. Ma developing80. This is me doing subtle81.82.83. Re-framed84.85. Something about the mirroring and juxtaposition works well here86. Citrus gets involved87. Citrus88.89.90.91. This was a good one for me, spit and pallet knife textures and a roller swirl92. Overwritting: I am feeling nervous about my banners now. Which is a pain because I will have to take my own advice about letting go of control…93. Good Ma on this…94. 95.96. Yes, overwritten…yes please97.98. Cleaning the roller, transferring the mark…99. Folded transfer100. I don’t take off all the tape.101. I like the stone holding the page102. I now want the stone on all the pages… different stone103. Look at the spit on that…104.105.106. The square at an angle and missing edges feels good107. One stone is better than two…108. Two stones, ok if placed differently109. Raw pigment brushed with acrylic medium110. Ink written on wet paper111.112.113. Urine blotted114. Urine causes granulation in some pigments, not others…115. Pigment only transfer with urine granulation. The pages stuck together, torn apart, then stuck back looks different, I embody that…116. White is the intersex/non-binary colour on a trans flag white gel over print.117. Urine picks up dried tattoo ink and Indian ink. There is not much difference between the two inks, and Indian ink has been used for years to tattoo.118. Manufacturers have now sabotaged Indian ink by mixing in biocides… MAPA tattooists didn’t get that memo…119. Interested in this square motive…120.121.122.123.124.125. From my deck
Mx.D.P 
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